Saturday, October 10, 2009
wow. i haven't blogged for almost a week:) that's a good thing:) haha. shall blog today then hopefully will stop until after A levels unless I have something pertinent to blog about.
I am getting into the mugging mood:) Quite productive until i went to sleep:/ I should not sleep in the afternoon. shall try means and ways to keep myself awake haha.
I realised what it means by without God, we cannot do anything. Cuz like we try our best to do things in the way that we think that it should be done. But nothing really gets done without God. Like we thought about what we should do last week. Then this week when it was mentioned again, I feel that what we discussed was rather insignificant? like ya, we tried our best. But this is something too big for us to be able to change. If God doesn't help us, no matter how hard we try, there's a limit as to what we can actually do. Not saying that we shouldn't try our best though. Just that God is still the most important.
And also, like sometimes when we put things in our face so that we can see it daily and hopefully remind us to do a certain thing. I realised that if in our hearts, we are not willing to do anything, no amount of post-its, reminders or anything visual that we try to put up will help. we can see it everyday and ignore it and eventually look at it as just a passing object of no significance.
everything boils down to what we really want doesn't it?
what is the purpose of your life? can anyone really answer that question?
Lord we need Your grace and mercy. We need to pray like never before. We need the power of Your Holy Spirit to open heaven's door.
trumpets forever - 10:56 PM :)
Monday, October 05, 2009
gosh. how come ppl can blog so openly about their feelings and nobody knows what they're talking abt :/ i really cannot. somehow i'll just reveal to much lol.
anyways, i realised i forgot to talk abt sat and and yesterday's dinner.
Sat we celebrated maf and jamie's birthday. so we had bbq! but it was raining. so we had bbq in the rain! all the more exciting :) the food was really nice:) and jamie's ice-cream cake was nice too! but she didn't want to eat -.-
oh before the bbq, i went to 'be a teacher'. basically just go to some place to play a movie for kids to watch while i watch over them lah. I don't understand why the kids cannot just sit down and watch the movie properly. most of them can. but there are a few exceptions. they just walk around, talk to their friends, play among themselves etc-.- that movie was one of the longest one i watched:/ but the second group of kids were rather well-behaved fortunately:) I was dreading the time that they would stand up and start walking round. Fortunately they didn't.
Sun was daddy's chinese birthday. so we had steamboat at ama's house. nice food again! haha.
and today, yan left for shanghai for 6 weeks :(
trumpets forever - 10:00 PM :)
Sunday, October 04, 2009
This is horrible. I'm like telling myself I cannot do it already even before I start trying. So obviously cannot right. But I somehow feel that I'm not willing to do it. No regrets? I really doubt so. right now, even if I know that I might regret it next time, I don't want to do it. I rather regret it next time when the time comes:/
Gosh. today is a sunday. supposedly my happiest day of the week. and so why is my post starting with such a depressing thought. guess i just don't want to accept it. like hopefully not accepting it means that it won't come true. what a delusion-.- God's plans are always greater. so why am i trying to live my life my way.
To end on a happy note,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN!!! :D
trumpets forever - 9:24 PM :)
Friday, October 02, 2009
this sun no LLYWD campaign so why no storm!!!!! :( that means one more week without storm:( and i thought he said we don't have to lead anymore. why got training o.O
difference between:
normal and common
reasoned and reasonable
love and like
think about it. quite interesting :)
trumpets forever - 7:46 PM :)
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WARREN!!!
Haha. his classmates totally made him embarassed today. they bought him a pokemon bag and made him carry it around and tied a barbie doll balloon on the bag somemore. and he got a big pikachu soft toy too.
went to school early in the morning today. a lot of ppl didn't know they didn't had to report for morning assembly so they came early too haha. played for national anthem and school song:) and i did a math paper :D then got back GP compre. essay tmr then get back.
After school went to jurong point with dina:) walk around, talk, shop, eat. basically, slack. it was fun:) and i first time took 172 home. it passes by a lot of military related places i think. like some air base, keat hong camp, home academy etc.
trumpets forever - 9:13 PM :)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Prelims is over!
I successfully slacked for one day :) went out with class. watch some movie that wasn't worth watching-.- the fact that we're watching it is quite ironic though lol. then went to ion. first time there haha. but didn't really explore it well. i'll go back there someday. most prob after A levels.
dinner was productive haha. funny word to use i know. but ya. managed to finish discussing whatever is needed:)
i feel 'fortunate' to be able to sleep late and not worry abt what paper there is tmr :) And I am going to do what I haven't done for a long time. Tmr morning go class bench and sleep XD
But after today, it's time to get back to reality...
trumpets forever - 11:49 PM :)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
it was really short-lived.
i couldn't sleep last night! I dunno why. was on my bed from like 12.10am to 1 plus am but cannot fall asleep. maybe i was thinking too much. cuz like don't think about anything also cannot sleep so start thinking (then all the more cannot sleep -.-) finally fell asleep though :) dunno why nowadays don't sleep as well as last time. maybe not as tired? but like now take quite long to sleep and sleep halfway will wake up. nv used to do that. last time is lie on my bed less than 5 mins fall asleep already and nv wake up until alarm clock ring one -.-
the horrible mosquito bite on my arm is becoming more unlike a mosquito bite -.- so red. and looks weird:/
STORM songlist today was super nice:) really:) i realised do projection cannot close eyes. cuz like later press wrong thing then everybody will realise except me. and i may not remember where to press also cuz i memorised most of the lyrics (for today's songs) and i cannot jump and press the correct key at the same time lol.
In desperate need of mercy
At the end of my own strength
I fall upon the kindness of Your grace
Lord I know that You are good
You came to rescue me
So please hear my humble fear
Save me Lord save me
I have nowhere else to go
Lord I trust in You alone
To save me my Saviour
I call on Your Name
Jesus save me
Lord I believe You died to set me free
Lord I believe Your blood has ransomed me
trumpets forever - 8:34 PM :)
