Tuesday, May 15, 2012
I have decided to blog cuz I'm bored.
It's now 3 weeks into the holidays and I already feel that I have wasted the 3 weeks. I cannot remember what I have done. And I don't know what I want to do either actually. It just seems like a waste of time and a waste of my life. But I don't know what to do to make it seem like not a waste.
How? There doesn't seem to be a goal or a purpose to fulfil. Watching show and playing game whole day is really a waste of time. And even when I want to do stuff, I'm too cowardly to do them alone. I want ppl to do with me. And when nobody wants to do it, I don't do it either. Talk about lack of determination and passion.
I'm kinda of irritated by the lack of purpose. Like I feel that I am wasting time, but all that I am doing now is just wasting more time. Doing totally nothing at all to make it better. It is really quite funny that my good friends are all like capable, busy high flyers yet I am such a slacker. But I guess being busy is better since my results aren't better even when I am not busy. Only one year left. Decide fast. Waste more time and the year will just past.
Which reminds me. 9 days to release of results.
trumpets forever - 11:44 PM :)
Monday, January 23, 2012
It's Chinese New Year! But somehow this year I don't feel the festive spirit :( I spent the whole of last week wishing for cny to come but now that it's here, I'm wishing that I can go back to school.
The only fun part of today was dressing up. Then visitation seemed routine and was also relatively boring. All we did was sit around and watch tv or play cards.
And now that I'm home, I have no idea what to do. I guess it's okay to slack since it's cny. But I have stuff to study (though not very urgent) and there's nothing slackish that I really want to do. Cannot watch show. Nobody to talk to. Nothing to do on facebook. Don't feel like playing games. And also don't want to study. I am bored. What i wouldn't mind doing right now is to go and sleep. What a sad chinese new year :/
And tmr I guess my dad wants me to stay home and study. There's nowhere that i really want to go but staying home to study during cny is just sad. Now I wonder how come cny could be so fun last time and why is it so different now. I guess it's just cuz we have all grown up. We no longer play and have fun.
I am bored and a bit tired. Maybe I should go and sleep, at 10pm, earlier than my bedtime on schooldays, simply because I have nothing to do.
trumpets forever - 9:51 PM :)
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I decided to blog! simply because I haven't blogged for very long... and i'm a bit bored studying :p
I am excited that we're having a new youth pastor! :) and that she is coming quite soon... like after chinese new year... and also chinese new year is going to be here really really soon! can't wait for the next 2 days of school to be over then there will be a really long break yay! (: there's steamboat on sat and sun night awesome :) though i'll prob end up eating more than i would want to :/ oh wells... can go on diet after chinese new year. it's only once a year! cannot miss out :p
I have decided to study harder this sem! cuz after 3 sems of not doing that well, it's time to do well! and also cuz i want to win the challenge haha! though i dunno what prize i want... hmm...
fang ji has SO many things to rmb though... oh man... quite crazy... and it's 8AUs :/ so must start memorizing now and hope that they all go into my long term memory... God will help me! :)
trumpets forever - 10:22 PM :)
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Nothing you can do to make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done could make Him close the door
Because of His great love He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts broken lives
He will take them all
The power of His love
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
I believed that I could do it. That it was possible.
But maybe... just maybe... it's time to convince myself not to hold on to false hope anymore.
You are perfect just the way you are.
I wish I truly believe that from the bottom of my heart.
trumpets forever - 1:12 AM :)
Saturday, August 27, 2011
I think 'Highest Place' is a very comforting song. It prob has got to do with the fact that when I used to be lonely and sad in hall, i'll play it and listen to it cuz at that time I was practising it for sing and strum auditions. And it would somehow make me not feel so sad.... to know that God is always there for me. Even now, listening to the song brings comfort :)
If I go to the heavens or down below
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there I will find you waiting
You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
And the valleys speak wonders of Your Name
You are in the perfect sky
You're in every breath I breathe
You're in every moment life seems to pass me by
You're my Prince of Peace
The amount of drafts there surprises me...
trumpets forever - 3:50 PM :)
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Haven't blogged for really really long... I have no idea why I always seem tired these days. I tend to sleep very early. Not exactly a bad thing except that I end up not doing homework when I sleep early :/ School has started for 1 week and it is not bad. TCM diagnostics is quite interesting while anatomy is a bit of a disappointment. I think reading the textbook would probably be more interesting. I have come to the conclusion that lecturers from the Beijing university are all not bad so I shall look forward to TCM lessons in future :)
Though actually, school isn't the main purpose of me blogging. I like this song :)
Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace
trumpets forever - 9:54 PM :)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Back from Perawang! It was quite a good mission trip:) One of the best I've been to actually. Though I think that we could have actually done more. Cuz like going all the way there to do a little bit isn't very worth it. The last 2 days were like holidays... I think it's nicer to go to these kind of places rather than like Cheras.
But the concerts were awesome:) Never had such atmosphere in church before. Maybe except revelution a long time ago? But I don't really remember that already cuz it was so long ago, I was prob sec 1 or 2. Dance was great too! I enjoyed dancing 'Nothing is impossible'. And indeed, nothing is impossible with GOD :) The dancers there were really enthusiastic and so determined to learn the dance though a very short time was given. I think they learn faster than us even though they're not used to doing this kind of dances. And some of them are very cute haha. We normally count one to eight when learning the dance so they counted too... but in Bahasa Indonesia heh... satu dua tiga empat lima enam tujuh lapan:) I actually think that their tamborine dance is cool too. And it's like 'choreographed' on the spot. They have a few standard steps then one leader will give instructions as to which step to do during the song itself.
Hopefully we can bring the enthusiasm back to church and to youth. Though the audience really play quite a huge role in building up and maintaining the atmosphere. The people there really responded very well. But at least it showed us that with God's help, we can do it. It's not only those really pro bands that can hold these kind of concerts. STORM can do it too! And if we can do it there, why not in Singapore right... And also ultimately, we learnt that God is in control. And as long as we allow Him to work through us, nothing is impossible :)
And the pastor and family were very hospitable. Very difficult to find people like this in Singapore. Though somehow when I go overseas the people there are always very hospitable. Like that time in Thailand. They go all the way out and even the extra mile to make us feel comfortable and to accomodate not only to our needs but also our wants. Like we want to drink coke and there is coke the very next meal and every meal after that. They really go out on the spot to buy for us. And they give up all their rooms for us to sleep. Oh and the kids there are very cute haha :)
It was also great to spend time with the rest of the youths and get to know them better:) I am happy that I managed to buy my strings to do the friendship band! And influenced all the other girls to buy and do it too haha :) All in all it was a good trip:) Though we initially felt really unprepared. God is good:)
Puji Tuhan! :D
trumpets forever - 9:20 PM :)
